[Experiencing Withdrawals] Oh my goodness!! I’ve been on IMVU for seven years and still have not been able to define the line between real and fantasy. People shake thier heads at me like i have a problem, but i don’t really care. I pay real money to play on this site. When IMVU asks me to verify my account, they want my real name. Now in the last few months i’ve been informed i can make real money, but i have to give them my real social security number. The people i meet and spend time with are my real friends. Fantasy my a*s! How do you meet someone and spend five years with them and not have real feelings for them? Even if its online. No, that’s not the question? How do you trust in something you’ve never seen, never touched, never smelled. OMG!! How do you hold on to a relationship that was created in a world that is meant to be a game? You go from typing and role-playing to phone calls and video chats. Well, i guess you can say i’ve seen him, maybe two times. Video chats where he can see me, but i can’t see him, unless he uses someone’s computer that has a camera. Ninety-eight percent of the time, i can’t see him. Really!! I have this crazy love for him and its like he’s just two seconds outside of my reality. He’s there, but not there. He’s real, but not real. I only have so much to go off of, then he turns around and takes the thing i was holding on to. He snatches the ground from under me. I’m left suspended in nothing. What the hell do i do? I’ve been in this position over and over again. Every time i’m terrified because the pain is very very real. It’s a game Butta! Okay, how do i pretend to not be scared? How do i pretend trust when i don’t? How do i pretend to believe in something that i’m starting to believe will never go beyond the click of my mouse? It’s all blurred. Life is way too short to pretend. Well, i clicked the X and closed all the confusion. I erased every freaking line. At least now i know why i’m crying. No guessing, no pretending, no trying to figure out what’s reality and what’s fantasy. Only thing left now is pain. Yeah, i need Jesus.